It's late, I have been trying to go to sleep and I can't.   I have been reminded of why I left religion so long ago.   My oldest grandchild wanted to be in a homeschool group that her friends are in.   It is a religious group and we were turned down because I don't believe the same things they do.   I think sucks that folks can discriminate against others based on beliefs.   I would not be teaching or sharing my beliefs with anyone and my grandchild shares their beliefs.   I hate that she has to learn about discrimination at this point in life.  I don't really fit in with any church belief and that has been a problem for me.   I don't feel like I fit in anywhere.   I had hoped that they would escape that curse.  I am frustrated and angry and I can't figure out how to get around this.  I had forgotten how judgemental and intolerant religious people can be   I don't want to deal with it.   I don't want to be around those kind of people.  That isn't my God.   My God is loving and forgiving and accepting of ALL his/her children - regardless of what they believe/don't believe.

To Celebrate or not?

I just read a friends blog about current events and she said that she couldn't feel anything but sadness that a human's life is gone. I understand her thinking and what she says, but I can't separate the man from the evil. I understand feeling sad for the family that has to mourn his death, but Karma bites us in the ass sometimes! I can honestly say I have never wished for nor hoped for his death, but I have hoped that justice would be served. Osama Bin Laden has evaded American forces and allies for almost a decade making capture and trial almost impossible. It is not up to me to decide how justice is meted out. I feel sad for his family having to deal with his death, but no sadder than I felt for them having to be associated with him in the first place.

I won't say I'm celebrating his death, but I won't say I'm sad that he's gone. The world is less one tyrant/terrorist and I don't believe that anything else would have made the world feel safer. There is no way the man would have changed his viewpoint and prison would have done nothing. Many much less notable tyrants have controlled things from prison - why should we believe that Bin Laden would have been any different?

My concerns now center on the probability that Al Qaeda will probably be much more active - at least initially. They will now feel that they have to prove they are still just as powerful and THAT scares me! I pray the Gods/Goddesses hold our troops in their hands and keep them safe until things calm again.

Ok, I'm done. I hope everyone has a great day!

Life keeps Hopping Along!

I couldn't resist that title with the time of year! It seems that it is a never ending battle just to keep my head above water. I realized last week that I have been letting way too much get me down! Not anymore, I have made it to the gym 5 days now! I skipped Sunday ( just lazy) and today because I spent the whole day moving furniture and boxes and such up and down 2 flights of stairs - that was enough of a workout! I will be back on it tomorrow though!

When all of the moving and organizing is done, I will have my work space/office/studio back! I am so looking forward to having room to sew and make things again! I have tons of ideas in my head and tons of fabric to work with, just have to get to it. Now that I am starting to feel a bit better, I will get on it and maybe I'll share some of it here! First project will be a cloak for a customer in California.

Ok, enough for the day. On to getting some food and getting ready for a new day tomorrow! I get to see my best friend!

Remember.... Life's a banquet.. and most poor suckers are starving to death!

Seawind

Put off putting it off

I saw this on a newsletter this morning and thought - that sums it up quite nicely! The author said, Quite trying to be perfect. Just do it.

She was referring to blogging! I can understand. I'm never quite sure what to write about and so I just don't get back here like I should. I guess it doesn't make much difference what is written - the point is to write! I will try to keep that in mind and begin more!

I need a vacation!

I am so far beyond tired right now. A FB friend commented to the effect that sleep deprivation equaled the use of drugs and why didn't someone tell her that years ago when she was spending all that money on drugs. If this is what it feels like, I'm glad I never got into that scene! LOL

With 3 of 4 children suffering ear infections last week, I didn't sleep for 3 days and now it seems I will never catch up! Within an hour of getting up I have that out-of-sorts weird feeling of just not being 'with it'. I don't like this at all. At least the kids are feeling better, now I just have to catch me up!

On another note, I was looking at going back to school in the spring and find that I our expected family contribution is the whole tuition! I may not make it to school after all. That stinks.

An exciting two days!

Yesterday I got a call from my doctor's office and the results of my BRCA test came back negative! I am so excited! It really is great news for us!

Today the kids and I took a drive and got some Kefir grains from a lady on my homeschool group. In the process, I believe we made a new friend! I really enjoyed my time there with them and the kids loved the puppies and the chickens they had! I enjoyed being shown the garden and learning about squash borers. She even gave me a stalk from a mullein plant. I have been wanting some in our yard and now I will get my wish!

Now if I can just get the girls to quit fighting with each other. Lacey is bossy and mean to Helen and Helen just falls apart at the slightest thing.

Wow! An amazing festival!

We spent all of yesterday at a festival fundraiser for a new assistance program aimed at pagan families! This was the inaugural Pagan Pathways Festival and it was wonderful! I look forward to next yeasr when it's even bigger and better! Lacey ran the cash register a good bit of the time for my booth (great for math skills!), Helen got to spend time with a girl she bet at the park recently. She is 13 but the two of them seem to get along very well! I love when kids don't put restrictions on age, but just enjoy each other's company! The boys had fun hanging out with Cullen and I got to see friends old and new. It was warm, but we had a few good breezes come through. When we got home about 8:30 last night, I fixed egg sandwiches for the kids, they all took baths and they were all asleep at 11:00 with no battles! Yay for sunshine and fresh air! LOL